♥«؟χ؟»ραιи & нαтє«؟χ؟»♥

The girl that said,

She would love you forever,, 

Didn’t love you at all,, 

Because if she did,, 

 She'd be standing where I am..

She never loved you,, 

[I did...]

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                                       Theres two guns there,,

                               One for the heart one for the head,,

                                  You pulled the fucking trigger,,

                                        Bang Bang Im dead,,

                                     

 

 

                          

 

                 

 This rose is like your heart and what it feels for me, But i hope one day it will turn a ccolour that i feel for you,,

yOU.might.be.toxic.but,,     

  I'll Never Let you go...   

Sonny Moore  ......

fading away to dust_& 

 ♥♥♥♥♥***** 

          ●__&؟ραιи & нαтє؟&__●

What’s so special about you
That makes me love you all over again?
What’s so special about you
That makes me feel so weak when I’m around you?

What’s so special about you
That makes me want to have you in my life?
What’s so special about you
That makes me cry at night knowing that we’re only friends?
What’s so special about you
That makes me feel so lucky to have you as a buddy?
What’s so special about you
That makes me think about you 24/7?
What’s so special about you
That makes my day when I see you?
What’s so special about you
That makes my heart beat when you’re nearby?
What’s so special about you
That makes me have butterflies in my stomach?
What’s so special about you
That makes me need you more than anything?

 I will save this last breath

for words that I won't scream.
I don't feel like dying, but you're killing me.

Just when the wounds start healing

you're there to break me open.
Watch the blood spill.
I'm getting used to this.
I'll clean it in the morning.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

One day, when I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school. Name was Kyle. It looked like
he was carrying all of his books. I thought to myself, why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd; I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friend’s tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on. As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running
toward him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt. Went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him. He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes my heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said, those guys are jerks. They really should get lives. He
looked at me and said Hey thanks! There was a big smile on his face. It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude. I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived. As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before. He said he had gone to private school before now. I would have never hung out with a private school kid before. We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books. He turned out to be a pretty cool kid. I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends He said yes... We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him. Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again. I stopped him and said Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday! He just laughed and handed me half the books. Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best
friends. When we were seniors, we began to think about college. Kyle decided on Georgetown, and I was going to Duke. I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem. Kyle was going to be a doctor, and I was going for business on a football scholarship. Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the time about being a nerd. He had to prepare a speech for graduation. I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak Graduation day, I saw Kyle. He looked great. He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school. He filled out and actually looked good in glasses. He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him. Boy, sometimes I was jealous! Today was one of those days. I could see that he was nervous about his speech. So, I smacked him on the back and said, Hey, big guy, you'll be great!  He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled. Thanks, he said. As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years.  Your parents your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends...  I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them; i am going to tell you a story.  I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met.  He had planned to kill   himself over the weekend.  He talked of how he
had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home.  He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.  Thankfully, I was saved.  My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment.  I
saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.  Not until that moment did I realize its depth.  Never underestimate the power of your actions.  With one small gesture you can change a person's life.  For better or for worse.  God puts us all in each other's lives to impact one another in some way.  Look
for God in others….

wat do u do if a blond throws a grenade at u?

u pull the pin nd throw it bak LMAO!

just to see

s o m e t i m e s    y o u   j u s t    h a v e    t o   r u n   a w a y ,   

s  o   y o u   c a n   s e e   w h o   w i l l   c o  m e   a f t e r   y o u .

s o m e t i m e s    y o u   h a v e   t o   t a l k   q u i e t e r ,  

j u s t   t o   s e e   w h o   i s   l i s t e n i n g 
 
s o m e  t i m e s   y o u   h a v e   t o   s t a n d   u p   i n   a   f i g h t ,  

b u t   o n l y   t o   s e e    w h o   i s  s t a n d i n g   b y    y o u r    s i d e .

s o m e t i m e s   y o u   h a v e   t o   m a k e   a   w r o n g   d e c i s i o n

o n l y    t o   s e e   w h o   i s   t h e r e  t o   h e l p   y o u   f i x   i t .

 s o m e t i m e s   y o u   h a v e   t o   l e t   g o   o f   t h e   o n e   y o u  

love ,

j u s t   t o    s e e   i f   t h e y  w i l l  c o m e   b a c k . . .

x__x

Never say that things cant get any worse
because life  will prove you wrong..
dont think you can handle everything

on your own
because  no one is THAT strong
after a while  you get sick of caring
and your too hurt to fight..
sometimes no matter what you  do
things will never be right

so bury me iin memory
hiis smiile’s your rope
so wrap iit tiight around your throat

How-do-u-tell-the-people-u-love..

You-cant-do-iit-anymore?..

How-do-u-wake-up-everyday..

And-smiile-for-them-once-more..

Although-ur-dying-iinside?

they'll never get over….

 gcgcgc©cgcgcg

Every girl has that one boy that
That one who makes them laugh.

The one who gives u butterflies just when someone says his name.

That one who remembers the things u think u say are stupid
and reminds u about it months from now.

The one who has his name written all over ur heart.

The one who u compare every guy to.

That one boy who u never could get sick of talking about.

The one that u cry over & over about.
The one that no one can understand why him.

That one every1 thinks u can do better.
The one u ask to urself why her & not me?.

The one when u first saw him you knew that you loved him.

The one that in some way ends up not being yours.

I can see behind your eyes I can tell when you’re on empty You can make me smile, so easy You can make me sing I’ll be your hope I’ll be your strength I’ll be the sun that shines on you I’ll be your way You make every day worth while You’re the air that keeps me breathing I will stand by you, forever Cuz you’re my everything If you ever get lost I will find you When your night’s getting dark I will be a light for you When you’re faithless & broken Come to me gcgcgc©cgcgcg   ©R.I.P NANA 3-1-2006© ©1 DAY AFTER MY MUM'S GRANDMA DIED©

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Just because - I'm bitchydoesn’t mean I'm a bitch.  

 Just because I'm quiet doesn’t mean I don’t have alot to say.

Just because - I appear happy doesn’t mean

everything’s ok.

Just because - I'm *sarcastic* doesn’t mean I don’t take things seriously.

Just because - I forgive doesn’t mean I forget.

Just because - I don't listen to your problems doesn’t mean I don’t care.

Just because - I'm gullible doesn’t mean I can be cheated.

Just because - I'm *stubborn* doesn’t mean I'm not easy going.

Just because - I don't study doesn’t mean I'm stupid.

Just because - I don't show my feelings  doesn’t mean I don’t have any.

Just because - I *hate my life* doesn’t mean I'm suicidal.

Just because - I don’t love you doesn’t mean

I don’t have feelings for you.

Just because - I'm honest doesn’t mean

I'm outspoken.

Just because - I'm not like you doesn’t mean I'm weird.

Just because - I'm unsure doesn’t mean I'm afraid

I have a secret inside that no one knows.
I always practice how I could tell you, just how I feel about you.
But when the right time approaches me, I'm so speechless.
When I'm with you, I try telling you, but I just can't.
My feelings just won't spill out.
But after you leave, I'm able to get the words out just fine.
It happens like this all the time, since the 2nd time I seen you.
So I've came to terms that this love I have for you, will never be discovered.
I know now that I wont ever be anything else to you, but a friend.

I am  what  I  am

I  do  what I do

                    AnD if  you got a pRoblem

                 Then bitch,

                                  Fuck you

                      So fuck  wHAt you heard

  And recognise what you see;

                 ii know you heard rumours

                     But here's the

Real Me

 

 

ℓєανє мє α ¢σммєит...  

 

 <<<mixed feelings!!! i guess      N

I looked down at my arm
and i felt ashamed
i started to think
should i cause myself more pain?
And the pills dont ever work
i wont try to OD
but the thought of hurting myself
no one could ever see
I want to just die
so i might get a rope
but no matter what i do
ill never have hope
so ive dicided what to do
Ill call up a friend
and ill talk this all over
instead of letting my life end

The End Of Heartache

Seek me, call me
I'll be waiting

This distance, this dissolution
I cling to memories while falling
Sleep brings release, and the hope of a new day
Waking the misery of being without you

Surrender, I give in
Another moment is another eternity

(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

You know me, you know me all too well
My only desire - to bridge our division

In sorrow I speak your name
And my voice mirrors my torment

(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

Am I breathing?
My strength fails me
Your picture, a bitter memory

For comfort, for solace
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

  Driven under these barriers I lie
waiting for the day I can disappear.
So drained I slowly cry to myself
my pillow case catching every tear.

So many times I have bled
these cuts of mine now scars..
But still it isn't enough to survive
I still wish not live to see tomorrow.

So many times I have screamed
hoping one day you would hear me.
But still it isn't enough to even try
baby, I no longer want to breathe!

So many times I have prayed
wishing they would be answered.
Now my faith is no longer there

this hate eating at me like cancer.

Soon I'll be dead I can feel it
I've driven myself to far down.
I know it's times like these
I wish I lay dead in the ground.

I've tried so hard to be perfect
but I failed myself once again..
As these temptations rise above
I can feel myself loose once again..

Because it's never enough
my strength has burned away.
Not knowing if I'll live to see tomorrow
because I don't think I'll survive today.

dreams